After posting last week’s blog, I called a relative to touch base with her. During our conversation, she mentioned that another relative said that I don’t call him. At first I was at a loss for words, but when I regained my ability to speak, I asked her to explain what he meant. To which she replied that he shared that I called him once and never called him back. Upon realizing that this could quickly turn into a he say/she say situation, I skillfully changed the subject.
Friendship is like a bank account, in order to make withdrawals; deposits would have had to be made. It we invest time in others we get to know them well and after a while we can predict with a certain degree of accuracy the kinds of things they will do or say in certain circumstances. As discussed last week, we cultivate friendships by being R-E-A-L, which is making deposits into the friendship account. Deposits include – calling each other, spending time with each other (depending on proximity), caring about each other’s well-being and doing random acts of kindness to name a few. As I look back on this ‘friendship’, I realize that this person does not double my joys or cut my griefs in half. As a matter of fact it is the exact opposite – his actions constantly double my griefs and cut my joys in half. I also realized that if we were not related our friendship would have been one of utility, and not a true friendship. His statement caused me to think even further – he is not willing to make deposits into this particular friendship account – if I called you once and never called back, could it be that I was busy, sick or even dead? There is only one way to find out – make a deposit of concern – give me a call.
Some may think I’m wasting energy on this incident, but in my quest to live authentically I have very little space for things or people that drain me. In order to effectively manage this friendship, I realized that I had to change its dynamic. The two steps I employed were:· Accountability – I took an inventory of the relationship. Can I honestly say that I have made deposits into it by being R-E-A-L? What were/are my contributions to this relationship? Does this individual contribute to the relationship in a meaningful way or has he ever? Do I feel negative vibes in this person’s presence? Do I feel hypocritical when having to interact with this person? I must admit I didn’t like the answers [even though they were true].
· Forgiveness – I needed to forgive this person for his treatment of our relationship. It does not mean that I had to be condescending or self-righteous; it just means that his behavior (although it hurt) has nothing to do with me. I read that to forgive is to perform spiritual surgery on the soul and that is just how it felt when I decided to forgive this relative. I removed the desire for things to have been different and replaced it with an acceptance that this is who he is and unless he sees a need to change, this is who he will always be. From Genesis to Revelation runs the recurring theme of forgiveness; and if I am to live in God’s image, I must forgive others.
Truth be told, I now feel better about this relationship. Although I would not be making the type of deposits I once made, I am very grateful because I’m reminded of how I want to be treated and how I should treat others. It keeps me R-E-A-L.
I’m just thinking . . .